This video broke my dam of reticence this morning. Watch it and I’m pretty sure you wont be able to hold your tears as well.

You Are God by Jam Capistrano of VCF

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Yesterday I went to church after more than 3 months of not being able to attend Sunday Service. It felt like coming home once again. During the praise and worship, I couldn’t hold back my tears when the song Mighty to Save started playing. We’ve been praying for the Lord to turn things around, for us, for our family in all aspects.

I feel so tired sometimes. In fact, I feel that I’m about to slip into depression. Sometimes I just want to give up, there are even times when I ask what I got myself into. But then I felt God’s reassuring love yesterday when the band sang this song.

One of ABS-CBN’s prime time TV series May Bukas Pa is said to be ending today. The said show received several awards for providing inspiration and promoting good values. The show was beefed up with guest appearances of local showbiz’s big stars. The show is about a little boy who gets to talk to Jesus and refers to Him as Bro. The child was able to heal sick people and perform other miracles, most of which were taken from the Bible.

I am not really into watching local TV series, I feel that they are too predictable and at times totally far fetched. I only get to watch this one because our new helper is a big fan. The show is said to be ending today. Apparently, rumors have it that the little boy is going to die in the end the series. As of the episode yesterday, the child is in the hospital due to an accident and is 50-50. If its true that they will have the child die as the ending episode, I say that the writers really did not do their job well in terms of research. If the child dies, then that goes against exactly what the Bible says about why God died for us. According to John 10:10 The thief’s purpose is to kill, steal and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life (New Living Translation). So if the ending of the story will be the death of the main character, then that is certainly not inspirational! Seriously, how then does it become Biblical and inspirational?

I am seriously appalled when people say that a person died because God decided to already take him/her away because he/she is a good person. Absolutely absurd! There are so many passages in the Bible that says a righteous person will live at a ripe old age, that they will live to enjoy their grand children (Job 21:8, Psalm 128:6, Job 5:26). People like to say that all the time just to comfort themselves. But if a person truly has a genuine and fruitful relationship with God, then that person will not die at an early age and will not die a tragic death. I’m talking about our time now since we are living in the time of grace, the people who died tragic deaths in the Bible lived in a time of martyrdom. But at this time no one who has a truly fruitful relationship with the Lord will not die that kind of death. Tribulation and martyrdom is not yet at hand. So if the writers of the show decided to kill the lead character in the final episode, then they are sending a totally alarming message.

Tomorrow marks the last day of the month of November, then comes the merry month of December. Activities and reunions are starting to fill my calendar. Friends now living and working at far flung countries, are homeward bound now that Christmas is fast approaching.

Only one month to go and I’m bound to finally put my 2009 organizer to rest. Wow! 2010 is just around the corner.

Next year, is going to be a momentous year. My husband and I will be celebrating 10 years of loving each other and growing together. We are also trusting that the Lord to answer several faith goals and prayer requests that we have.

Right now, I’m just happy at where I am. It is nice to sit back and reassess things and simply wait on the Lord’s revelations.

writing

I’ve been wanting to write this entry since Tuesday of this week but could not find the time and energy to do so. Lately when I get home, I only get to do my usual routine – change, help in the kitchen, have my brother eat dinner, feed my son his dinner, take a bath, plurk, facebook, and check my email.

I got my real first ever free lance writing assignment – and I’m absolutely thrilled and floored. I did not bid on the project for the money, in fact, I quoted a meager amount for the bid because I really wanted to get the project. The selected applicant will be tasked to write a small paperback book that is all about a story of a little girl who experienced a miracle. I know that this project is a blessing right from the start.

The day after I emailed my proposal, I got an immediate reply from the employer. And here is what he had to say:

“Dear Erlyn,

We are confident you are the one to re write ” Angelica’s Story”. Thank you so much for your sample writings of your blogs . Your requested rate is $x an hour, what we would ask of you is to limit the first session of working with us to 5 hours. As you may need more time to complete the project we will re hire you again and again until the project is finished. We have 6 daughters and have to be careful on how we spend. You are worth so much more than the wages you request .
I will set up our payment information and hire you after you respond to this initial message.
Then what I will do is send you links and information concerning the story. We would want you to send us the format of the story, chapters, as you would finish them. We will do the layout of the book after you finish writing it and would be glad to send you a copy of it and give your credit for your part in the writings on the book. We hope to make a movie of it soon also that we will produce and maybe you could help orchestrate some of the information for that in the future.
But for now, we are  excited to choose you to help us create this small paper back book.

Thanks again,
John

Ps Mostly what I wanted to make clear is that we only want to payout 5 hours of time for your initial work with us and we will re hire you to finish the work as our budget will afford to.”
I was ecstatic upon reading his reply and could not thank God enough for this assignment. What’s more is that they will give me credits for my work instead of the usual assignments I get as a ghost writer. I am anticipating a battle – a spiritual battle, as I start this project since this story is a powerful testimony of the Lord’s saving grace and loving kindness and I’m certain that the devil will work his hardest to make sure this project is not completed. As such, I am praying for victory, and cling to His promise that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Thank you God!

***photo taken from the internet

There is hope in the Lord… always.

I have been agonizing over some things, and more aptly to say, some people at work over the last few weeks. It felt like a cycle, been down this path before, only a different setting and different sets of people, nonetheless, the picture is quite the same.

Everyday, I’d go home and seek God’s presence and then go to work and fell down trodden after having opened my mouth a couple of times, knowing what escaped my lips weren’t something that would glorify the Lord.

Going back to what I was saying, yesterday on my way home, as I was on board the MRT, the Lord spoke to me to quiet my troubled heart. As the MRT was moving along the Ortigas area and it passed by Megamall, He spoke to me through the electronic billboard. The message flashed and it said: God will make a way.

I said Amen from deep within me, knowing that God will deliver me out of this situation. My God is truly and awesome God.