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Lately, I’ve been feeling so far away from God. Haven’t been really reading my Bible and skipping my daily quiet time with God. It is no wonder I feel so tired, alone and up to some extent sad. Once again, I found myself with lots of questions. I haven’t been really happy and productive at work and am feeling down given the painstakingly slow progress of my son despite the therapies. I know it’s only a matter of time before I break down once more.
Last Thursday, I went to the drug store to buy medicine for my son who was sick then. After which, I went to the hardware to purchase a pvc cement. I felt so down and worried over my son, not just because he has fever at that time but also because we’re still unsuccessful in recovering him from autism. When I got in the store, God finally reassured me. The song playing in the store was Don Moen’s “I am the God that healeth thee.” I felt tears brimming in my eyes, I had to make an effort not to cry right then and there. I felt God’s arms enveloping me.Telling me to trust Him because He will take care of things.
Two days ago, I saw a sign on a tricycle saying: God will Provide! What a wonderful reassurance. And yesterday, on my way home from a client presentation, while I was pondering about what I really wanted to do, God once again spoke to me. The tricycle that I rode on my way home has something painted on its bumper (if you can call it bumper). When I looked closely into it, it says: When you don’t know what to do, let God lead you. So today, I’m praying for more enlightenment and confirmation. I feel like I am Gideon, asking God for multiple signs. But I take joy in the fact that the God of the universe loves me enough to actually speak to me.