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Lately, I’ve been feeling so far away from God. Haven’t been really reading my Bible and skipping my daily quiet time with God. It is no wonder I feel so tired, alone and up to some extent sad. Once again, I found myself with lots of questions. I haven’t been really happy and productive at work and am feeling down given the painstakingly slow progress of my son despite the therapies. I know it’s only a matter of time before I break down once more.

Last Thursday, I went to the drug store to buy medicine for my son who was sick then. After which, I went to the hardware to purchase a pvc cement. I felt so down and worried over my son, not just because he has fever at that time but also because we’re still unsuccessful in recovering him from autism. When I got in the store, God finally reassured me. The song playing in the store was Don Moen’s “I am the God that healeth thee.” I felt tears brimming in my eyes, I had to make an effort not to cry right then and there. I felt God’s arms enveloping me.Telling me to trust Him because He will take care of things.

Two days ago, I saw a sign on a tricycle saying: God will Provide! What a wonderful reassurance. And yesterday, on my way home from a client presentation, while I was pondering about what I really wanted to do, God once again spoke to me. The tricycle that I rode on my way home has something painted on its bumper (if you can call it bumper). When I looked closely into it, it says: When you don’t know what to do, let God lead you. So today, I’m praying for more enlightenment and confirmation. I feel like I am Gideon, asking God for multiple signs. But I take joy in the fact that the God of the universe loves me enough to actually speak to me.

You Are God by Jam Capistrano of VCF

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writing

I’ve been wanting to write this entry since Tuesday of this week but could not find the time and energy to do so. Lately when I get home, I only get to do my usual routine – change, help in the kitchen, have my brother eat dinner, feed my son his dinner, take a bath, plurk, facebook, and check my email.

I got my real first ever free lance writing assignment – and I’m absolutely thrilled and floored. I did not bid on the project for the money, in fact, I quoted a meager amount for the bid because I really wanted to get the project. The selected applicant will be tasked to write a small paperback book that is all about a story of a little girl who experienced a miracle. I know that this project is a blessing right from the start.

The day after I emailed my proposal, I got an immediate reply from the employer. And here is what he had to say:

“Dear Erlyn,

We are confident you are the one to re write ” Angelica’s Story”. Thank you so much for your sample writings of your blogs . Your requested rate is $x an hour, what we would ask of you is to limit the first session of working with us to 5 hours. As you may need more time to complete the project we will re hire you again and again until the project is finished. We have 6 daughters and have to be careful on how we spend. You are worth so much more than the wages you request .
I will set up our payment information and hire you after you respond to this initial message.
Then what I will do is send you links and information concerning the story. We would want you to send us the format of the story, chapters, as you would finish them. We will do the layout of the book after you finish writing it and would be glad to send you a copy of it and give your credit for your part in the writings on the book. We hope to make a movie of it soon also that we will produce and maybe you could help orchestrate some of the information for that in the future.
But for now, we are  excited to choose you to help us create this small paper back book.

Thanks again,
John

Ps Mostly what I wanted to make clear is that we only want to payout 5 hours of time for your initial work with us and we will re hire you to finish the work as our budget will afford to.”
I was ecstatic upon reading his reply and could not thank God enough for this assignment. What’s more is that they will give me credits for my work instead of the usual assignments I get as a ghost writer. I am anticipating a battle – a spiritual battle, as I start this project since this story is a powerful testimony of the Lord’s saving grace and loving kindness and I’m certain that the devil will work his hardest to make sure this project is not completed. As such, I am praying for victory, and cling to His promise that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Thank you God!

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There is hope in the Lord… always.

I have been agonizing over some things, and more aptly to say, some people at work over the last few weeks. It felt like a cycle, been down this path before, only a different setting and different sets of people, nonetheless, the picture is quite the same.

Everyday, I’d go home and seek God’s presence and then go to work and fell down trodden after having opened my mouth a couple of times, knowing what escaped my lips weren’t something that would glorify the Lord.

Going back to what I was saying, yesterday on my way home, as I was on board the MRT, the Lord spoke to me to quiet my troubled heart. As the MRT was moving along the Ortigas area and it passed by Megamall, He spoke to me through the electronic billboard. The message flashed and it said: God will make a way.

I said Amen from deep within me, knowing that God will deliver me out of this situation. My God is truly and awesome God.