God loves a cheerful giver as the scripture says. And lately, I have been very scrimpy when it comes to my offering and have not been tithing for the longest time, but that’ll be for a different post all together. Anyway, 3 Sundays ago the Lord wanted to put me to the test and the teaching series back then was all about tithing. Read more…
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Lately, I’ve been feeling so far away from God. Haven’t been really reading my Bible and skipping my daily quiet time with God. It is no wonder I feel so tired, alone and up to some extent sad. Once again, I found myself with lots of questions. I haven’t been really happy and productive at work and am feeling down given the painstakingly slow progress of my son despite the therapies. I know it’s only a matter of time before I break down once more.
Last Thursday, I went to the drug store to buy medicine for my son who was sick then. After which, I went to the hardware to purchase a pvc cement. I felt so down and worried over my son, not just because he has fever at that time but also because we’re still unsuccessful in recovering him from autism. When I got in the store, God finally reassured me. The song playing in the store was Don Moen’s “I am the God that healeth thee.” I felt tears brimming in my eyes, I had to make an effort not to cry right then and there. I felt God’s arms enveloping me.Telling me to trust Him because He will take care of things.
Two days ago, I saw a sign on a tricycle saying: God will Provide! What a wonderful reassurance. And yesterday, on my way home from a client presentation, while I was pondering about what I really wanted to do, God once again spoke to me. The tricycle that I rode on my way home has something painted on its bumper (if you can call it bumper). When I looked closely into it, it says: When you don’t know what to do, let God lead you. So today, I’m praying for more enlightenment and confirmation. I feel like I am Gideon, asking God for multiple signs. But I take joy in the fact that the God of the universe loves me enough to actually speak to me. 
I watched A Walk to Remember in the big screen some years ago, I think more than five years ago and it’s still on the top of my list of most romantic movies. Okay, I’m a big fan of Mandy Moore so that’s a plus. But aside from that, I also like their team up. Shayne West did a great job in playing a typical jock, who later on found himself madly in love with the girl he’s least likely to fall for. Mandy Moore on the other hand was very versatile. Note that this was just her second movie, the first movie she was casted was Princess Diaries where she played the part of Anne Hathaway’s mean girl classmate. Watching her play the role of the pastor’s daughter was a breath of fresh air, very far from the image I have of her singing “Candy” and “Crush”. Read more…
Yesterday I went to church after more than 3 months of not being able to attend Sunday Service. It felt like coming home once again. During the praise and worship, I couldn’t hold back my tears when the song Mighty to Save started playing. We’ve been praying for the Lord to turn things around, for us, for our family in all aspects.
I feel so tired sometimes. In fact, I feel that I’m about to slip into depression. Sometimes I just want to give up, there are even times when I ask what I got myself into. But then I felt God’s reassuring love yesterday when the band sang this song.
Tomorrow marks the last day of the month of November, then comes the merry month of December. Activities and reunions are starting to fill my calendar. Friends now living and working at far flung countries, are homeward bound now that Christmas is fast approaching.
Only one month to go and I’m bound to finally put my 2009 organizer to rest. Wow! 2010 is just around the corner.
Next year, is going to be a momentous year. My husband and I will be celebrating 10 years of loving each other and growing together. We are also trusting that the Lord to answer several faith goals and prayer requests that we have.
Right now, I’m just happy at where I am. It is nice to sit back and reassess things and simply wait on the Lord’s revelations.
writing
I’ve been wanting to write this entry since Tuesday of this week but could not find the time and energy to do so. Lately when I get home, I only get to do my usual routine – change, help in the kitchen, have my brother eat dinner, feed my son his dinner, take a bath, plurk, facebook, and check my email.
I got my real first ever free lance writing assignment – and I’m absolutely thrilled and floored. I did not bid on the project for the money, in fact, I quoted a meager amount for the bid because I really wanted to get the project. The selected applicant will be tasked to write a small paperback book that is all about a story of a little girl who experienced a miracle. I know that this project is a blessing right from the start.
The day after I emailed my proposal, I got an immediate reply from the employer. And here is what he had to say:
“Dear Erlyn,
We are confident you are the one to re write ” Angelica’s Story”. Thank you so much for your sample writings of your blogs . Your requested rate is $x an hour, what we would ask of you is to limit the first session of working with us to 5 hours. As you may need more time to complete the project we will re hire you again and again until the project is finished. We have 6 daughters and have to be careful on how we spend. You are worth so much more than the wages you request .
I will set up our payment information and hire you after you respond to this initial message.
Then what I will do is send you links and information concerning the story. We would want you to send us the format of the story, chapters, as you would finish them. We will do the layout of the book after you finish writing it and would be glad to send you a copy of it and give your credit for your part in the writings on the book. We hope to make a movie of it soon also that we will produce and maybe you could help orchestrate some of the information for that in the future.
But for now, we are excited to choose you to help us create this small paper back book.
Thanks again,
John
Ps Mostly what I wanted to make clear is that we only want to payout 5 hours of time for your initial work with us and we will re hire you to finish the work as our budget will afford to.”
I was ecstatic upon reading his reply and could not thank God enough for this assignment. What’s more is that they will give me credits for my work instead of the usual assignments I get as a ghost writer. I am anticipating a battle – a spiritual battle, as I start this project since this story is a powerful testimony of the Lord’s saving grace and loving kindness and I’m certain that the devil will work his hardest to make sure this project is not completed. As such, I am praying for victory, and cling to His promise that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Thank you God!
***photo taken from the internet
cluttered desk
Tomorrow I will have seven (7) new agents added to my current team of four (4). Quite manageable you’d say. Perhaps I would agree with that given my circumstances four years ago, meaning – single, without child and without so much bills. Today, I’m going through the motions as if I was walking down this path for the very first time.
I work for the BPO industry, specifically in a contact center, where the company generates revenue from having a pool of phone representatives answer to client’s customer calls day in and day out.
I am actually wondering how come I feel quite inadequate to be handling a team all over again, to think that I was able to manage a team of 40 agents for 11 months in the past. I guess things had to change at one point. In my walk with God, I know that God has had to humble me and is still trying to humble me in a lot of areas in my life and one of that is at work. I used to be very cocky, thinking that I have all the answers and that I am good due to the fact that I was able to inspire a lot of my subordinates to reach greater heights. But looking back now, I would say that it just always because the Lord is saving me each and every time.
I am anticipating that the coming days will be so much challenging and to some point stressful, but I trust that the Lord will be there for me each and every time.
